Bored Barbie

Hello!!!
I’m back after a few weeks of no bloggies. I, like all of you get discouraged from time to time. I lose my luster for things and have suffered from a strong case of the blahs in recent weeks. Mind you, I have not fallen of the healthy eating or exercise wagon, in fact I've been better than ever. When I start to feel like i am loosing control of my life, I then go full force with my body because it is the one thing I can control. The mind and the body are so strongly connected it’s almost frightening! If I am feeling a certain way about my life it affects the way I see myself. I literally have days where this immense fear falls upon my thoughts. I have thoughts like this: "What if my recently weight loss was a fluke and I am going to slowly gain it back." Not to mention the frustration of cellulite and other imperfections. All I see is the progress I haven’t made and even though I know most of these feelings aren’t warranted they still have a way of dragging me down. So how can I (we) stop this toxic pattern? When I start to feel insecure it is directly related to how I feel about where I am at in life. If my social life is going well and I am involved in creative type things I feel great, physically and mentally. When things are dull and there is not much going on I start to obsess more about my looks because I am not enjoying life as much. It’s basically just shifting the focus. I believe there must be a balance. I don’t need to be constantly busy in order to feel fulfilled but it is very important to have soul filling activities. Ok, so this just seems like a tangent I know, but there is a point to all this. The point is… Live Well! I’ve said this before and ill say it again! If you do things that make you feel healthy mentally your body will follow suit. I think people struggle with weight because they feel it’s all about restrictions but in my opinion is about taking control. Eat what gives you life and exercise so that you can live well! It’s all simple science! I am learning as I go, people! Fat Barbie is back! I hope your staying motivated even through the struggles!!
XOXO
Sarah

Diet Schmiet

The “diet” controversy; we have all done it. Super Size me with a diet coke. Diet foods and beverages are a big SHAM! Yes I said it, SHAM! Now, that being said I think regular coke is just as poison but the diet stuff is a false sense of security; this is my battle with diet sodas and sugar free stuff. First let me preface this by saying I love me some sugar. Put in Oreo in front of my and watch my willpower disincarnate. I seriously crave sugar first thing in the morning. I, through much discipline and education have suppressed this sugar addiction, but now all that remains is the satisfaction of sugar free lattés and diet sodas. Doesn’t sound too bad, right? Why stop at good enough when I can be better. So I am challenging myself to give up my daily diet beverage and sugar free whatever’s and instead saving this as a treat when going out to dinner or special occasions (which is a rare occasion). I know as some of you read this you may be thinking “This chick is too extreme” But even in my few days of giving up the diet sodas I have realized something; I don’t crave as much junk or salty foods. Who wants chips and water? I have found that my cravings for salty snacks are just not as exciting without the diet drink to follow. So maybe the diet soda won’t make you fat but the things you crave when you drink it certainly are not the healthiest. Here is the deal; I am not telling you have to be an extremist. I believe in order to maintain success; your daily diet has to be feasible and enjoyable. It’s ok to cheat sometimes. It’s ok to drink soda but maybe a regular coke once and a while is better than a diet soda everyday? Think about what you put into you body and how it makes you feel. Here is your challenge; Write down what you eat and how you feel after. This isn’t just for those who want to loose weight this is for everyone who wants to live healthy and feel good. If you are trying to loose weight, try saying “I want to be healthy” instead of “I want to loose weight” Your body is connected to your mind. If you tell your brain what to do, your brain well return the favor for your body. Again, I am no expert this is all from personal experience and research. We are all in this journey together! Weather your big or small or in-between I think we all want to feel good! Hope your week is amazing! Today I want you to do something you have never done before. Break up the routine and let me know how it goes!

Xoxo

Sarah

Dear John letter to my brain

Hello Brain, SHUT UP!  Seriously why must you always being thinking obsessive things that make me crazy!? I love that you make me write songs and have deep feelings..well i guess my heart gets some credit too huh? See there you are making me THINK again. Where were you in school when i needed you? Why do you go in so many directions making one simple decision almost impossible? I wonder what i would be like if you just made up your mind.(pun intended) once and a while. If you gave me a clear and concise vision of what I'm supposed to do with my life instead of scattered remints of ideas i had at some point. I appreciate that you are of the creative sort but sometimes id like to lay my head on my pillow and just SLEEP. You analyze every minute detail of my past present and future to the point of chaos and i just cant take it any more. There must be a way to control you, to make you see things my way..whatever way that may be. I feel as though you are a big bowl of different cereals mixed together making one sugary breakfast that fills the belly but does not nourish. I'm not asking for much, just a little focus sometimes. I imagine taking you out of my head and putting you on my nightstand just so i can get a good nights rest. I love you and i hate you. There must be a way to harness you. You are a just wobbling around in there with no boundaries and id like for you to stop. I want to be in control of my life not the other way around, So in closing this has been fun but i think its my turn to give it a go. Today or shall i say tonight I'm going to choose to tell you what to do, you better listen or ill start taking Tylenol pm and you wouldn't want that would you?

Goodnight my fellow fat barbies put down that midnight snack
xoxo
Sarah