Happy Friday Lovelies! I'm going to rant about something very specific today. I don't know how embarrassing this is to admit but here on Fat Barbie nothing is off limits. I've lost almost 40lbs over the past six months or so and i believe i lost it because i let go of my obsession with my weight and just became more healthy. I wasn't freaking out over every piece of food, i was just making better choices, tweaking little things and of course exercising five days a week. The other day I realized i gained 2lbs, Which mind you can be water weight but it still freaked me out. I'm gonna give you a little insight into my neurotic obsession. If i feel as though i gained a pound or two i will try on every single pair of jeans in my wardrobe, then dresses etc, just to make sure nothing is tight and if it is tight i FREAK OUT. Like crying and becoming extremely panicked and depressed. Its very unhealthy behavior and since this recently wight loss i do not have these episodes nearly as much,Until the two pound incident. It took me so long to finally loose this wight and break my five year plateau that the thought of gaining it back scares the crap out of me so bad that i cant even let my mind go there. Ive still been exercising and eating healthy(minus a couple bad weekends..i blame brad for that!) This time i know what works for my body, i know how to eat and what i can and cant have. Basically my metabolism sucks and i have to be conscious of EVERYTHING i eat, I've accepted this and am ok(sorta) but i hate when i go through this freak out sessions over two lbs! Anyway i don't know if I'm the only one who experiences this but my advice to myself and others is, if you have lost a significant amount of weight and are stressing about gaining it back,DON'T! Take control, TROW OUT YOUR FAT CLOTHES! You have the control of your body, don't make gaining the weight back and option. If you do gain a couple lbs back its ok as long as its not more than five pounds. Give yourself five flex pounds. The crazy thing about my freak out is I'm still ten pounds under my goal weight. We never seem to be satisfied do we? Oh well we are in fact just..Human :)
Happy Holiday Weekend! Don't over due the Cheeseburgers!!
XOXO
Sarah
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