14th Chance

Hello Loves.

I must once again apologize for my sporadic Fat Barbie posts. I haven’t been able to devote as much time to it because of all the rapid changes in my life.

But now... I am settled in my new place and it is starting to feel like home. I absolutely love where I live. I love that I can walk to almost anything I want; coffee, yoga, parks! It’s amazing! I love my building and I love coming home at night. I wouldn’t have imagined I would be living somewhere I adored; it’s always been places I could “get” until now!  Sometimes life’s tragedies turn into beautiful transitions. I was very restless where I was. I came home and just felt blah. I felt like I wasn’t really “living” my life but mealy existing. I was working, paying bills, but I wasn’t happy. My daughter, Solara is the most important thing in my life and I started to feel that I wasn’t being a good example to her. I want her to be a strong, vibrant, happy little girl.  I want for her to see that her mom is excited about life so that she can immolate what she sees. Granted, this hasn’t been easy for either of us. She is adjusting to a new school and a new place and I’m not going to lie, it has been challenging but I feel in my soul that this is a new start for a better life for both of us.

            I wanted so badly to have a change and boy oh boy did I get it. I believe sometimes life forces us to change when we won’t do it on our own. For instance getting fired or broken up with may seem like a horrible thing but maybe it’s the door closing so that that wonderful window can shine through. Of course let me just say, crappy things happen and sometimes they just plain suck. But no matter what we always have a choice in how we deal with them. Without going in to too much detail I will just say life has been very challenging in the past year. There were times I wanted to give up and raise the white flag but I couldn’t, I didn’t have a choice, I had to keep fighting. I had some very special people that help me fight when I couldn’t (BRAD)

Ok I could seriously rant about this all day but I wont!

Here is my point for the day.

Look for the beauty in the disasters; remember that you can always get up no matter how many times you fall. We all want something to look forward to. We all want to be happy but it is up to us to find that happiness and its important to remember happy isn’t always going to be there, we loose it we find it, we loose it we find it, but it’s always there. Nobody will complete your life but YOU. Am I perfect? NO do I have it all figured out? Absolutely not, but this I know… I’m going to be ok! I can take what life has to offer and I will try as hard as I can to make the decision to be happy.  Emotions are flawed so logic tells the heart what to do when the heart is too weak and the heart tells logic what to do when logic makes no sense (make sense?).

I’m so excited for my new life. New people, new adventures, and a new mindset. It’s never too late for a second chance. What can I say I truly am the eternal optimist J

DON’T EVER SETTLE

DON’T EVER GIVE UP

Oh and…

WALK AWAY FROM THE FRENCH FIRES!

XOXO

Sarah